I can't really believe it's been and gone, and I definitely have the festival blues! Nothing seems as fun as being in a muddy field, with your best friends, listening to awesome music! Nothing expect hanging out with my dear little boy.
But I think I've also got friendship blues! It pains me that they all live so far away, as when we are together it's the most comforting, exciting, funny atmosphere in the world, and they just know me. It easy, relaxed and full of a lot of love! We've all been friends for over 10 years, and that funnily coincides with it being 10 years since my first proper festival, Glastonbury. I feel old now!
But anyway, back to real life I go, and I'm very glad to be back in my little house, out of the rain, cuddling with Theo and Rob. He doesn't seem to be too bothered about me going away, and was a little shy when I went to pick him up, but then just ran around pointing out all of his toys going "oh look" over and over again! I've not nursed him either since returning home, and even though he's asked for it a few times I've managed to distract him with snacks and activities and it seems to be working, but more on that on another post!
I do really think going away to a festival really helped. Yes I am very lucky to have the opportunity to do this, and to have people there to help out with Theo, and for that I'm really grateful. (I wish I could repay all the favors and help we've been given over the years, and would love to be able to do the same in return, one day hopefully soon! But for now I just hope people know how truely grateful I am for all the help, and how we wouldn't be where we are without it, with just my words and feelings) But this is just one occasion where I thought about me and only me. And yes it was a little extravagant, as going to festivals tend to be expensive, but we had a few little bits of extra cash that came in just at the right time that made it possible (and bought a cheap ticket!). I think this is something that I really needed to do, to clear my head, have my first real break in over 2 years (pregnancy included in that) and just relax and not think of anyone but myself for a while. Selfish I know. But needed. I think it is also beneficial for Theo, and for Rob as they got to spend that time together, bonding without me. It made me so happy to think of them going off on their adventures, just the two of them. And for Rob to be able to make parenting decisions by himself, without me telling him what to do! I think it has also helped massively with Theo's sleeping routine and coinciding with the stopping nursing. Theo has gone to bed every night without me since I left on Friday. That's progress!
Sorry for the rant, I just feel I needed to get some things off my chest. It was a huge step for me, one I had been too scared to make. It's put a few things into perspective, and for that I think the money spent was well worth it.
So back to the festival itself, there's not really much to tell, as all the details are sort of insignificant. Just that an amazing time was had, despite the rain and the mud, and I'm so glad that I could for once be my (sort of) old self again, with my friends. Not that they don't like me now, or Theo (they love him!) of course, but I think it's nice that I could give them my full attention for once!
I decided to take my film camera with me, and I'm so glad I did! I got the photos back today so I thought I would share a few with you!
Once again, there probably could have been tons more photos, but I think I was too busy having an amazing time!
So thank you Greenman, thank you Wales, thank you weather, thank you music, thank you gin (and absinthe!!), thank you glitter, thank you mud, thank you food, thank you dancing, and thank you dearest friends and all the others we met along the way! Thanks for an amazing weekend! I love you!!