30 October 2011

A quiet weekend

Sorry I haven't posted in the last few days, it's not because we have been that busy, but actually more like just enjoying Rob's time off and continuing to relax and be lazy.

Today we got up and watched a film, dragged ourselves to Sainsburys to buy some comfort food, and came back and settled in for a day of doing NOTHING! We watched 'The fellowship of the ring' extended edition, ate soup, ben & jerrys ice cream, tortilla chips and dip and chocolate and didn't move from the sofa. Theo napped on me on and off all day. I then snoozed on the sofa whilst Rob watched the football, then started to make a yummy veggie shepards pie. All very cozy and winter warming. It was the perfect lazy day.

Yesterday one of my oldest dearest friends also came to visit me, which was great. We drank tea and chatted, then went to eat burgers and finally went for a walk on the downs. I've found it so hard to find time to properly keep up with friends on the phone and have proper talks, and fit around their schedules too, that it's just so much better when you are face to face and have the whole day to talk and talk. But with old friends it doesn't seem to matter the time that elapses between when you last caught up, the relationship is still the same, and they still understand you just as well.  It's really refreshing to be with an old friend who knows me well, and knows me pre-baby too. Sometimes I forget what I was like, and what sort of person I used to be, I cant even remember what I really talked about other than babies. Not that I don't like who I am now, or my life now, but sometimes its good to remember there was a slightly different you, with different priorities and interests. But mostly it's just great to have friends who are still there and still love you and understand you even though things and I have changed a bit. I just wished that they lived in the same city as me. Not that I'm not glad for my new friends here in Bristol, because I am, and I look forward to our friendships growing more and more, but nothing beats catching up with an old friend.

So that's all, off to put the baby to bed. Tomorrow we are going to visit a friend from University and meet her new little baby girl Aurelie. I'm so excited to see a new born again! Then we're continuing up to my mum's for a few days before Rob returns back to work.

I'm hoping these weeks go quickly and we can move soon. We filled out the application forms for the house, and have decided to take the plunge and sign a contract for a year. I hope this is the right decision, as we really don't want to move again in 6 months, and this way we will be forced to stay put! But I feel the house is right and hopefully we won't want to move for a year or so. Fingers crossed!

Also I'm getting excited about Christmas. Not really the presents or the day, but just that indescribable feeling of Christmas. It's nostalgic and warming, cozy and loving (hopefully) and i'm very excited about our first Christmas morning with my own little family. (I have been thinking about my Christmas list and have a few ideas so I might put it on here....!)

So goodnight, hope you all had a lovely weekend!

27 October 2011

9 Months

Theo is 9 months old today hip hip hooray!

It's been a good and a bad month for this little baby, he has been teething like mad, full of cold and sickness bugs. But in return has four new teeth up top, is fully cruising round the furniture, taken a few steps with his walker and learnt to climb stairs. He's been on holiday, saw his first steam train, had lots of cuddles and been spoiled by his granny and grampa. Lucky boy.

I can't quite believe that he has now been outside in the big wide world for as long as he was baking away inside of me. I miss my little co-habitor, and miss having him all to myself, fully protecting him. As much as I love to see him grow and learn and build relationships with other people sometimes I wish he was just mine again and we still had that secret little relationship communicating with kicks and pats. It's hard to believe this crazy crawling, babbling happy little boy once was as small as a bean that lived and grew inside of me. But hooray he did eventually come out to meet us all, because the world would be a very dull place to live if he hadn't of!

So in other news, as I'm sure a few of you know already, we decided to get the house we saw on Tuesday. We had to wait and see if they would let us have Alma there, but thankfully the would, so we put down the deposit. I feel really excited about it, and really just want to move now!

It's a two bedroom Victorian terrace, with lots more room downstairs than we have now. It's a house, an actual whole house, no one above or below us, just us. The landlords have been living there themselves, and it's their family home, so it is a well lived in and loved house. I like this fact, I like that it hasn't just been rented by random people for ages, but that it's a proper home already. It's in really good condition and just felt really right for us. The location is good, on a quiet street in a residential area not too far from town, but not smack bang in the middle of it like we are now. It has a nice big room for Theo, when he eventually moves out of our room (and bed!) We move on the 1st of December, and we'll hopefully be all settled and cozy just before Christmas...perfect! I do like our flat at the moment, and has been good to us for the time we've been here, but it just feels like the right time to move on, and settle a little bit more in a quieter location.

Wow, feels like we're becoming adults more and more....eeek

25 October 2011

Treading water

So we're back in Bristol after a really great week away. We well and truly needed that holiday, and I think it has helped us both to clear our heads and lift weights off our shoulders and spend some proper time together as a family. It was pretty relaxing and stress-free, and beautiful too. It's great that we can go on holiday to amazing places right on our doorstep.

Not much more to say on it all really. We had a great time at Rob's grandparents who spoiled us rotten (including Theo) he probably got spoiled the most! Theo was a bit ill or was teething on the last few days and we had a few sleepless nights, which is a shame as he was so good all the rest of the holiday. But it was great to have someone else around to help with it all. So here are the pictures of the rest of the holiday, there's probably quite a few!

In other news I've decided to take a step back from the business that I started, 'The Homemade Mama' with Kimberlee. I think in theory the business is a good idea, but in reality for me, there was too much to take on, and both of our priorities were in different places. I'm still going to carry on with the party planning side of the business, on my own and at my own pace. But for now I feel I just need to concentrate on Theo and my family and being there for them as much as I can. I really enjoyed the bits of making I did, and hope to carry on that in the future too, as it's fun to be inspired and doing something for myself. Kimberlee and I are still going to hopefully work together and help each other out in the future, but for now will just remain friends instead of business partners!

We also looked at another house today, and really do quite like it. I'm going to sleep on it, which means dreaming about where all our furniture will go and imagining us living there, and see if it all fits together. I feel like we need a new start, to wipe the slate clean and really get things in order and working. Recently I've felt as though I haven't really been coping that well with being a mother. It seems as though I have been treading water for the last few months, and anything unplanned that happens seems to drag me down and I feel like I'm fighting to get to the surface. I just want to feel like I'm on level, safe ground for a while, and know that I'm doing the best for my baby and my family. All the other stuff can come later. This holiday has really made me realise what's important in my life at the moment, and that I don't really need much else.

But that's about it for now!

21 October 2011

more holiday please

hello again, we're at Rob's grandparents now, and like I said we have been thoroughly spoilt! Since we got here we've not really had to lift a finger, and all our meals are cooked for us and the baby is entertained. It's great, but I'm going to be a real fatty when I get back home!

Today we took a trip to Exeter to have a look around and in some shops. I sort of realised that Theo has run out of clothes for the next size up, so we did a little stocking up in my favourite shop (for baby clothes) h&m. They really do have the best baby boy clothes. I wouldn't mind if Theo was dressed head to toe h&m all the time, if only I could afford it...(even though it is pretty cheap) We had a really nice but tiring day, and even got a few treats for ourselves, which was great, as it's been a long while since I've had something new!

This holiday has gone so fast, I can't believe it's the weekend already and we will be returning to Bristol in a few days. I sort of wish we were back on the beaches. I felt that part of the holiday went waaaaay too quickly. It was so lovely just to spend the day with my amazing little family; talking, walking and holding hands. I feel that after all the stress and tiredness of life recently, Rob and I have actually had time to enjoy each others company, and not just stress about housework, money, jobs etc. It's great to be able to reconnect in a way, and remember why you both enjoy spending time with each other. It just reminds me of how great and perfect our relationship is, and I'm so glad I've got Rob by my side to support me, and be there to talk to, and who understands things the way I do. Sometimes it's easy to forget these things when caught up with daily life and trying to stay on top of things. It makes my heart glad.

I've enjoyed this holiday so much so far, just what we both needed. On our second day we visited another beach and had a walk, then went for a yummy pub lunch. We just spent the rest of the day back at the b&b, relaxing the day away. Theo has been such a good baby whilst we've been away too, and it's so great to see him back to his normal self.  He's fully mobile now and will pull himself up onto everything and cruise the furniture. He's taken a few steps with his baby walker (the one I had as a child!) which is amazing to see, but scary too. He's just the sweetest too, and becoming so much more vocal and animated. He's into EVERYTHING and wants to explore EVERYWHERE, it's tiring, but makes me heart melt over and over! He's getting so much better at meal times too, and really loves his food now. It makes me so proud and glad to see him feed himself and enjoying food, and makes me feel like I've accomplished something great by sticking with the baby led weaning. Anyway here are some photos of him and more of the first day of the holiday...(need to put the rest on the computer!)

 In other news the house we liked has been rented, subject to contract etc, so looks like we missed out on that. We said we really liked it, and being away and talking it over it ticked so many boxes and we felt really positive about it. We said that if it was still there when we got back we would go for it, and it was meant to be, but alas it went. Places, especially nice places like that, don't stay around long on the rental market. But when hearing that it had gone I was really really gutted. I'm not sure if its because I know I can't have it I want it more, or whether it being taken made me realise that it really was the right place for us. It makes me sad. But we really didn't want to rush into things, and it was the only place we had looked at, and didn't have the deposit money together, and hadn't even told our agency at the moment we were thinking of leaving our flat. It all would have been too fast, and perhaps if we hadn't gone on holiday we could have viewed some other places and made a faster decision, but we hadn't 100% decided that we were going to move at that point either. But now we know we want to move, I really want to! But I guess it just wasn't meant to be, and fingers crossed something as amazing will come up and it will be the right time.

Right time for beddy-byes...i shall try to update again soon with the rest of the pictures. adios!

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